It just comes one full circle, I am just so dam tired of everything.
I wanna bury my head into the sand and not face anyone in the world, yeah, ostrichified, whatever you call it. Blogging is becoming pointless. Then you question, so why blog? Which is why I rarely blog now, because life is just nothing much fun to blog about.
So yeah, just as I thought things were getting better, den BAM, it happens again, in fact, even worst than before. Well, apparently the cancer cells have spread into the liver. Not me, my dad. Well, so it has reached a point where I feel fucking vulnerable. And I hate to feel that dam sense of haplessness or helplessness, whatever.
Oh and guess what, I hate statistics. So here it goes all over again, 5% chance of 5 yr survival rate with chemo, 30% with op, 45% with both. Yawns.
I am done ranting, well I guess probably I should recreate a new blog just to blog about happy thoughts, say travelling purposes. Maybe.
