Well, kinda actually. As 2007 closes with a bang, I just wanna pen down my thoughts for this tumultuous year. It was a tempestuous year for me, full of ups and downs, and more tears shed than anything else.
I faced my most traumatising breakup of all time, as most of my close friends already know, so there's really nothing new to talk about. But I think I'll do a recap of the year, perhaps put in some of my feelings and thoughts.
2007 began with me being in New York with someone whom I thought I could look forward to a future together. But well, it didn't even last a year more that that. However, I learnt a great deal from him, how never to trust a guy fully or how superficial some guys can be. At the end of it all, I put the blame onto myself for being so trusting and gullible and for shrugging off certain issues which have been crucial to my well-being in the relationship. Obviously I wasn't THE ONE because I'm not voluptuous enough, no double D cups to go along with my long luscious leg blah blah. Point is not the above sentence that I've just said. But it all boils down to communication, esp in a long distance relationship which could falter any moment.
I've been a bad communicator in this relationship, partially because whatever I say sometimes just seems stupid to a guy who doesn't understand my needs and concerns and the other being myself for not wanting to spoil a long distance relationship by being over-fussy. So, new year resolution number 1: To be a better communicator in future relationships.
I let myself feel inferior to him because of my inability to dress well and my lackluster figure. So, resolution no. 2: Never ever let anyone get you down or believe in the words of others who have their own intentions. (Ironically, this came from him)
Sometimes I feel used, others I feel angry, upset, betrayed and disappointed. But I know I have to get over this myself, because no one can help me except for myself. My friends have already pulled me up, now it's time for me to stand up by myself and walk.
I wanna thank him for making me more dressy, and a much stronger person. So that was for the first half of the year..
The later part of the year, my dad was diagnosed with colon cancer stage 2 and had post op complications, so life hadn't really been easy, but he's recovering so we're all very hopeful for the new year to be even better. I'm really grateful to my friends who's always there to hear me whine, to pull me up when I was down. I know it hadn't exactly been an easier year for you all too, so hang on..cos I'll be there if you need me!
Here's my New year resolution for 2008!
1. Get my driving license
2. To be happy no matter what happens
3. Travel and travel and travel - hoping to go to Europe and to Krabi again!
Again, I would like to thank all my friends for standing by me whenever I was down, for filling my heart with warm and comforting words, for letting me know that there's always someone who will be there for you no matter what happens.
I'm glad 2007 ended off with a high note, last words: cherish whoever is by your side, because you will never know when they'll be gone.
